im quite screwed.

photog sounds fun, but not when it comes to
attending classes under kheng li.
he seems so unpleasant, really.
and like unapproachable kind.
kj is still the same,
like, "oh i see familiar faces and
it's great that we're all gathered together
for this new module, isnt it wonderful?"
hahahahahaha.
seriously, he is funny at times,
but it gets irritating if he'd taught you
for a few blocks already.
and the way he says "sing-a-pore"
still cracks me up. lol.
anyways,
hope this block would be alright,
and i seriously cant wait for the hols to be here,
if there is even one.

and, you know it's ironic when you see
a very happy picture when you receive a new message
(of which is a function in certain sony ericsson phones),
and when you open up the message,
you feel damn depressed cos it makes you feel the total opposite.

i dont know what's going on,
and maybe it's jus me who's causing all the trouble la.
but i dont know.
i jus needed to say this out to feel better.
cos as what my friends always used to say,
"it's better to let it out to us,
then bottled inside of you
and having you to suffer alone."
i really miss them, their company
their laughter and smiles,
and everything else.
but oh well.
and yea,
i seemed to have gotten used to bottling up
until when i want to thrash things out,
i become too random and link up things unnecessarily,
then causing even more trouble and chaos.
so maybe that's why i choose to be alone sometimes.

i hope you understand.
cos i do understand you,
jus that i dont know how to show it
and i dont want to show it sometimes,
cos it seems that your wants are too weird for me to handle.
and also,
it's not wrong to be different,
and im just being who i am,
and not anybody else. (: